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oppression Marie Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Question:

I was born catholic married at 18, divorced and remarried. For 25 years I was away from the catholic church. About 12 years ago I had a big conversion experience. I left my husband and returned to the catholic church. I felt God wanted me to return, so I did. My husband and I both had our previous marriages annuled and had ours blessed in the catholic church.

My question is this: When I had my conversion I felt as if something sat down inside of me. Ever since I have been harassed by a presence, or a spirit that clings to my body. I go to confession once a month, pray every day, go to mass. I have prayed every novena I could think of, I have fasted, I have had others pray over me and command the spirit to leave. It does not!! I have gone over every aspect of my life, I have asked Jesus for healing and forgiveness.

I cannot understand why this thing is clinging to me. It is like a force that moves over me and tries to force its way inside of me. In order to get any sleep I have to take sleeping pills. I have sat up many nights crying because of what is happening to me. I am beginning to think that I'll never be free of this spirit. Why is this happening to me?

How can I grow closer to God when I can't sit in silence and stillness? I have been baptised in the Holy Spirit. I thought that this could not happen when you receive reconciliation and communion on a regular basis. I know God loves me, I don't understand why He lets this happen. I can't get help anywhere, no one knows what this is or how to help.

Are there doors left open?? How do I find out? I'm at my wits end, I can't say this is living, ever since I came back to the church I've had nothing but this affliction which is with me twenty four hours a day seven days a week. Would God call me back to Him only to let me be tormented like this? I really can't believe that, but I have no way to explain this. I'm a very different person than I was before. I love the Lord very much, but I'm getting so very tired of this.



Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OLSM

Dear Marie:

Remember that God loves you and will not let anything in your life that you cannot handle (even if you think you can't handle it).

Assuming that what you are experiencing is not psychological or psychiatric, the Enemy has a vested interest in attacking you when you returned to the Church. The Enemy hates when people come back to the Church.

As for why this "spirit" will not leave, there can many reasons. Some of those reasons, but not a complete list, are:

1) hooks remaining in your life that gives demons an excuse to hang-on to your life.

2) there is some lesson God wants you to learn before you are delivered from this affliction.

3) God wants you to work harder to secure deliverance. As humans we tend to take for granted that which we get too easily.

4) There may be some reason why you need to remain in this affliction. This happened to St. Paul when a demon harassed him (thorn in his side). He prayed three times that God would deliver him, but God said no three times. By accepting this St. Paul learned that Christ's grace was sufficient for him, and thus he did not need delivered in that regard. He also found out that in his weakness he had strength in Christ.

(2 Cor 12:7-10)  And to keep me from being too elated by the abundance of revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan, to harass me, to keep me from being too elated. Three times I besought the Lord about this, that it should leave me; but he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." I will all the more gladly boast of my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities; for when I am weak, then I am strong.

I advise that you go through our Seven Steps for Self-Deliverance linked below. If following those seven steps for a while does not give you some relief then you may want to contact us for a personal consultation (see "Help" link below) when we have an opening in our schedule.

We will be praying for you.

God Bless,
Bro. Ignatius Mary


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