Around age 28, I had a seizure because a magnetic protector was not put under my body when the doctor burned off a skin tag under my arm. I felt like I was hit by a bolt of lightening, and my eye balls were spinning in my eye sockets. This year a homeopath told me I had experienced a seizure.

Because of the seizure, and perhaps because of seizures as a small child, when fevers, I developed Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I did not know what I had until around age 37. I washed my hands and arms until they bled. I constantly felt that things were contaminated. My husband beat me, tried to suffocate me in bed one night, and we finally divorced. Some time I think in mid 1990 after years of asking God to cure me, I told God if he did not cure me, I was going to go to the devil because the devil said he would cure my OCD. I thought God would not want that and would cure me. He did not.

The demonic said to stand straight, and in an instant I felt a rush, I think through the top of my head, of tons of things come into me at a high rate of speed. It even changed the shape of my body. The evil one also said he was going to do one more thing, "Seal it with a kiss." I felt like a knot was made in my throat. I always felt like it was choking me. When I looked at somebody, I would start to look at them nicely, and then suddently something would come over me, and these evil eyes would replace mine. I saw dark shadows in the home. I would awake in the middle of the night and see a head with a terrifying face above me in bed and another such head in front of my closet. If I went into my bathroom in the middle of the night, I could not see myself in the mirror, because there was so much while stuff blocking the mirror.

I had a hard time getting or keeping a job because of my OCD. In my early 50s I began working for a man at a furniture store who kept pursuing me. I did not want to live with a man because I believed it was a mortal sin. However, my mother was always having to give me and my daughters money, so I was sick of feeling guilty for the handouts. I agreed to let this man live with me and pay my debts and buy me nice things. I also fell in love with him and could not bear to lose him. Also am ashamed I wanted to take him from his girlfriend so I would feel I was worth something. He saw spirits in the house. I saw three tall, gray male shapes standing shoulder to shoulder walk from my bedroom, through the middle of my living room and out the door.

I sold my home to get away from him, and went to a energy healer. She supposedly got rid of many demons in me and the knot in my throat. I am still plagued with having angry eyes when I speak to people.

A Catholic priest prayed a prayer to renounce Satan and put his hands on my head. Could I still be possessed? I pray the rosary, go to mass. Am I going to hell? I think both daughters are in Wicca. They have evil eye jewelry and runes, will not baptize their children or attend mass.