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Feeling pushed away from Communion	Megz	Saturday, May 5, 2007
Question: I've had a lot of trouble in my life, even though I'm only 22. By the age of four both my parents had physically, sexually, and verbally abused me...I was somewhat raised by another family where the mom tried to kill herself in front of me several times. They left and by age 8 I was "homeschooled", which I put in quotes, beucase while my brothers were I was made into the slave in more ways than one. Since a factory left around the same time no one noticed my disapearance from the face of the earth. My brothers grew up with friends who never knew I existed. The twice a week I did get out once was for Communion. I left at 19(after finding a spiritual guide and doing all of highschool in a year) and haven't returned in going on three years now (becuase I was still abused). I go to therpy for this and have a spiritual guide, but sometimes becuase they deal with everything else they brush off my struggle with the church as just normal for what I've gone through. I've gone to Mass but I haven't been able to go to communion in over a month. I feel very sad and even bad if I recieve Communion, though I've made good confessions. I know i'm hiding from the truths of what was done to me, even though it wasn't my "fault" I know part of it is defiance, although I believe in the Church there's no rule that we have to recieve Commuion every week. Am I under attack from the evil done to me in my past?
Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OLSM Dear Megz: It is a sad thing that you have had to go through the abuse and neglect that you suffered as a child. Although the adults in your life have let you down, God does love you and will never let your down. You are correct that the Church does not require reception of the Eucharist every week, but we are obligated to attend Mass each Sunday. The reception of the Eucharist is required only once per year during the Easter season. While this is the minimum requirement, you need to receive more often than that. To not receive is like not filling your gas tank in your car--you will run of gas soon. Given all that you have been through it is quite possible that your negative feelings in receiving the Eucharist are psychologically generated. But, "feeling pushed away" does concern me. That could be a possible clue to something other than a psychological issue. It is not unusual for people who have been sexually abused to have a "hitchhiker" in their lives, a spiritual affliction. The devil loves to hitchhike on people's problems. He tries to make things worse than they have to be. It would certainly be the devil's motive to try to push you away from the Eucharist for it is Jesus in the Eucharist that can give you strength and even healing. I would suggest praying the Hedge Prayer of Protection found in our Catalog linked below, and also the Rebuking prayer identifying the harassing spirit as the spirit of defiance, the spirit of sadness, the spirit of guilt and whatever attribute you can think of that is involved in your hesitation to receive the Eucharist. I would also add the spirit of sexual abuse, plus whatever you think may be present. In the part of the Rebuking prayer that asks to fill in the blanks for the opposite spirits as those being rebuked, I would suggest the spirit of obedience to oppose the spirit of defiance, the spirit of joy to oppose the spirit of sadness, the spirit of mercy to oppose the spirit of guilt, and the spirit of love to oppose the spirit of sexual abuse. I would advise following the advice in our HELP section linked below, and praying at least these two prayers. If this does not help after a while then you may need to contact me for a personal consultation. We will be praying for you. God love you, Bro. Ignatius Mary For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.

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Feeling pushed away from Communion

Megz

Saturday, May 5, 2007

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I've had a lot of trouble in my life, even though I'm only 22. By the age of four both my parents had physically, sexually, and verbally abused me...I was somewhat raised by another family where the mom tried to kill herself in front of me several times. They left and by age 8 I was "homeschooled", which I put in quotes, beucase while my brothers were I was made into the slave in more ways than one. Since a factory left around the same time no one noticed my disapearance from the face of the earth. My brothers grew up with friends who never knew I existed. The twice a week I did get out once was for Communion.

I left at 19(after finding a spiritual guide and doing all of highschool in a year) and haven't returned in going on three years now (becuase I was still abused). I go to therpy for this and have a spiritual guide, but sometimes becuase they deal with everything else they brush off my struggle with the church as just normal for what I've gone through.

I've gone to Mass but I haven't been able to go to communion in over a month. I feel very sad and even bad if I recieve Communion, though I've made good confessions. I know i'm hiding from the truths of what was done to me, even though it wasn't my "fault"

I know part of it is defiance, although I believe in the Church there's no rule that we have to recieve Commuion every week.

Am I under attack from the evil done to me in my past?

Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OLSM

Dear Megz:

It is a sad thing that you have had to go through the abuse and neglect that you suffered as a child. Although the adults in your life have let you down, God does love you and will never let your down.

You are correct that the Church does not require reception of the Eucharist every week, but we are obligated to attend Mass each Sunday. The reception of the Eucharist is required only once per year during the Easter season. While this is the minimum requirement, you need to receive more often than that. To not receive is like not filling your gas tank in your car--you will run of gas soon.

Given all that you have been through it is quite possible that your negative feelings in receiving the Eucharist are psychologically generated. But, "feeling pushed away" does concern me. That could be a possible clue to something other than a psychological issue.

It is not unusual for people who have been sexually abused to have a "hitchhiker" in their lives, a spiritual affliction. The devil loves to hitchhike on people's problems. He tries to make things worse than they have to be. It would certainly be the devil's motive to try to push you away from the Eucharist for it is Jesus in the Eucharist that can give you strength and even healing.

I would suggest praying the Hedge Prayer of Protection found in our Catalog linked below, and also the Rebuking prayer identifying the harassing spirit as the spirit of defiance, the spirit of sadness, the spirit of guilt and whatever attribute you can think of that is involved in your hesitation to receive the Eucharist.

I would also add the spirit of sexual abuse, plus whatever you think may be present.

In the part of the Rebuking prayer that asks to fill in the blanks for the opposite spirits as those being rebuked, I would suggest the spirit of obedience to oppose the spirit of defiance, the spirit of joy to oppose the spirit of sadness, the spirit of mercy to oppose the spirit of guilt, and the spirit of love to oppose the spirit of sexual abuse.

I would advise following the advice in our HELP section linked below, and praying at least these two prayers. If this does not help after a while then you may need to contact me for a personal consultation.

We will be praying for you.

God love you,
Bro. Ignatius Mary

For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.