I take an express bus home from work and got friendly with an older woman (maybe late 50's) and never really said much more than polite hellos and goodbyes, and how's work...until January 31st. She brought up the subject of scary movies and books which we both like. Then she said when her aunt was little they live in a house (rental, I presume) and was told NOT to go into the back room and keep the door to it closed. Her aunt's mother, naturally after being told by the landlord not to go in there, did. She saw the hanging ghost of a man who hung himself int hat room.

She told her two daughters not to in there, but my friend's aunt did go in there and saw the same thing. They wound up moving out. While my friend told me this, I got a little creeped out. Now a day later, 2/1, I woke up peeved real bad, got frustrated and angry with an elderly relative and "lost it." I went off to work and on the way kept saying to myself "I am going to hang myself. I can't take it anymore."

I know getting angry and frustrated with my relative earlie aned saying "I can't take it anymore" came from my own anger and frustration but for me to say it to myself on the way to work adding in the "hanging myself" part I don't think came from mes.

Today I can picture that man who hung himself in my friend's Aunt's house, been peeved all day until 4:01 p.m, and can picutre my friend Andy's father hanging from a tree in a local park many years go. Andy found his father hanging from a tree.

My bus friend speaks low and the tone and rhythm of her speech is a bit off. If was if as she relayed the story of her aunt, that I picked up this negativity, and negativity from Andy's father.

Why I am telling you I don't know. Sometimes I feel I need an exorcist, no overt symptoms or signs, just not practicing my faith anymore, serious doubts, anger outbursts and other "small" stuff. Your insight will be appreciated.