Ask a Question - or - Return to the Spiritual Warfare Forum Index

Question Title	Posted By	Question Date
under assult since my childhood	grace	Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Question: Brother,it is a strange thing for me but I wish you take it serious.from a tender age I believed that God is against me.I believed that he arranges everything in the way that may suffer more and more. I had an abusive father and a my mother wanted a son.when my brother was born I was forced to see him naked very often and being told that the male body is pure and sacred while my body is bad and hellish.and this continued until he was about ten.I was always told that my brother will be a hero-saint and I will be an adultress or go to the prison. I used to weep silently.Now I have a special temptation which say to me:"who are you dust and ashes?who are you to obey Jesus?If you enter the chuch you will pollute it.why do you o dost and ashes dare to serve Jesus do you think you are worthy of doing this o proud and presumpteous woman.do you forget who you are?" my main problem is that when I want to say hail Mary a powerful blasphemy seeks to force me to say hate Mary.
Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OLSM Dear Grace: I am sorry to hear about your suffering but I can assure you that God is not the cause of your suffering. God loves you. He never does anything evil and causing someone to suffer more and more is evil. God will take the suffering we experience and make something good from it. The Bible tells us that "All things work together for good to those who love God." That is God's promise and God does not lie. The cause of your suffering is the abuse you experienced from your parents. They chose to abuse you and mis-treat you and you are still suffering from the effects. These thoughts about polluting the Church is you go to Church and being unworthy are not Godly thoughts. While we are not worthy by ourselves, we ARE worthy in Christ. Christ makes us worthy. That is why we say in Mass before receiving communion, " Lord, I am not worthy, but say the word and I shall be healed." When you have these thoughts that are not of God you need to reject them. The Bible tells us to "take captive every thought in obedience to Christ" (2 Cor 10:5). What I suggest to my clients is to do the follow if they are by themselves and no one is around: Extend your hand out in front of you in a gesture of STOP. Say the word STOP out loud. And then offer a prayer, "Lord, I reject this thought that is not of You. I accept only thoughts that are pleasing to You. Amen." If you have 40 improper thoughts a day then you need to do this 40 times a day -- each time you have a thought not pleasing to God. If you are not in a private place and other people are around, then do not do the gesture or say anythings out-loud, but say the prayer silently. In addition I suggest the following: 1) Take a look at our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog. There are prayers in there that may be useful to you. For example, there is a Rebuking Spirits prayer. If you think there is any demonic influence in these thoughts and feelings then say a rebuking prayer that rebukes the spirit of envy, the spirit of jealously, the spirit of pride, etc. 2) Go to our HELP page on the St. Padre Pio Center for Deliverance Counseling site and follow the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance 3) Live a good Catholic life as best as you can. That is, celebrate Mass each Sunday (more often if you can), seek the Sacrament of Confession often, receive the Eucharist often, involve yourself in daily prayers and devotions, and perform good works. Also, spend at lest one hour per week in adoration of the Blessed Sacrament. If you parish does not have exposition, then sit in front of the Tabernacle. Tell God your problems but be sure to sit quietly for a while and just contemplate the Bless Sacrament. This can do wonders. 4) If, after a time, things do not improve, then you may need formal deliverance counseling. There is a HELP REQUEST FORM at the bottom of the Help page if needed. 5) Given the abuse you received it would also be wise to see a counselor to help you gain self-esteem and perspective in your life that you are a worthwhile person. We will be praying for you. God Bless, Bro. Ignatius Mary For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.

Question Title

Posted By

Question Date

under assult since my childhood

grace

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Question:

Brother,it is a strange thing for me but I wish you take it serious.from a tender age I believed that God is against me.I believed that he arranges everything in the way that may suffer more and more.

I had an abusive father and a my mother wanted a son.when my brother was born I was forced to see him naked very often and being told that the male body is pure and sacred while my body is bad and hellish.and this continued until he was about ten.I was always told that my brother will be a hero-saint and I will be an adultress or go to the prison.

I used to weep silently.Now I have a special temptation which say to me:"who are you dust and ashes?who are you to obey Jesus?If you enter the chuch you will pollute it.why do you o dost and ashes dare to serve Jesus do you think you are worthy of doing this o proud and presumpteous woman.do you forget who you are?"

my main problem is that when I want to say hail Mary a powerful blasphemy seeks to force me to say hate Mary.

Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OLSM

Dear Grace:

I am sorry to hear about your suffering but I can assure you that God is not the cause of your suffering. God loves you. He never does anything evil and causing someone to suffer more and more is evil.

God will take the suffering we experience and make something good from it. The Bible tells us that "All things work together for good to those who love God." That is God's promise and God does not lie.

The cause of your suffering is the abuse you experienced from your parents. They chose to abuse you and mis-treat you and you are still suffering from the effects.

These thoughts about polluting the Church is you go to Church and being unworthy are not Godly thoughts. While we are not worthy by ourselves, we ARE worthy in Christ. Christ makes us worthy. That is why we say in Mass before receiving communion, " Lord, I am not worthy, but say the word and I shall be healed."

When you have these thoughts that are not of God you need to reject them. The Bible tells us to "take captive every thought in obedience to Christ" (2 Cor 10:5). What I suggest to my clients is to do the follow if they are by themselves and no one is around:

Extend your hand out in front of you in a gesture of STOP. Say the word STOP out loud. And then offer a prayer, "Lord, I reject this thought that is not of You. I accept only thoughts that are pleasing to You. Amen."

If you have 40 improper thoughts a day then you need to do this 40 times a day -- each time you have a thought not pleasing to God.

If you are not in a private place and other people are around, then do not do the gesture or say anythings out-loud, but say the prayer silently.

In addition I suggest the following:

1) Take a look at our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog. There are prayers in there that may be useful to you. For example, there is a Rebuking Spirits prayer. If you think there is any demonic influence in these thoughts and feelings then say a rebuking prayer that rebukes the spirit of envy, the spirit of jealously, the spirit of pride, etc.

2) Go to our HELP page on the St. Padre Pio Center for Deliverance Counseling site and follow the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance

3) Live a good Catholic life as best as you can. That is, celebrate Mass each Sunday (more often if you can), seek the Sacrament of Confession often, receive the Eucharist often, involve yourself in daily prayers and devotions, and perform good works. Also, spend at lest one hour per week in adoration of the Blessed Sacrament. If you parish does not have exposition, then sit in front of the Tabernacle. Tell God your problems but be sure to sit quietly for a while and just contemplate the Bless Sacrament. This can do wonders.

4) If, after a time, things do not improve, then you may need formal deliverance counseling. There is a HELP REQUEST FORM at the bottom of the Help page if needed.

5) Given the abuse you received it would also be wise to see a counselor to help you gain self-esteem and perspective in your life that you are a worthwhile person.

We will be praying for you.

God Bless,
Bro. Ignatius Mary

For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.